Let's see...
You pull this string over here...
I wonder what this expression means.
It feels like I'm being pricked.
Back then...
Welcome back, Canaan.
I'm back.
Back then, Canaan...
I know this expression is...
I give up.
I'm confused all over again.
Maria?
Something's not right.
Just what about this night is actually right?
There's nothing right about this night.
Nothing at all.
It's your fault.
Your real name is "despair."
When will you show me your true power?
Don't die until you do.
Why is everyone blaming me?
Why do they... die?
W-What is this?
Canaan?
What's wrong?
I'm okay.
I was just resting.
Were you able to buy some water?
Maria...
I knew it.
...please.
I knew that Canaan wanted to tell me something.
This is the first time I...
But I didn't know what to tell her.
The Canaan I know...
saw things I couldn't see and was venturing into a world unknown to me;
all the while running and shining...
But Canaan right now isn't...
That hotel room's a little small for all four of us, right?
Since we don't have enough beds,
I guess I'll sleep with you, Canaan.
As long as I'm with Maria...
If I'm with Canaan...
It's not going to budge.
You girls go on and take the train back.
But...
It'll be cheaper than all of us being stuck here and spending another night.
Besides,
we can't just leave this thing here.
This is delicious!
I took the leftover bread from this morning and made sandwiches!
Thanks.
You too, Canaan.
Thanks.
There's only a handful of passengers on board; plus we're in a reserved car!
This sure feels good.
Looks like we're at a checkpoint.
You think we'll be okay?
There's nothing to worry about.
We haven't done anything to anger our ancestors
or anything close to it.
W-What was that just now?
Take care of Maria for me, Yun Yun.
It'll be fine.
Let's go back together, okay?
Canaan!
Is she going to be all right?
What is this?
This feeling; it's just like...
that day!
Siam.
I died here.
You were killed by Alphard.
You think so?
I wonder who killed us.
Just pipe down and take a seat, Yun Yun.
No way, José!
Canaan left me in charge of protecting you!
I'll be fine!
A-Al...
Alphard.
Excuse me, but I'll be sharing these seats with you.
But there are plenty of seats elsewhere!
You're like a snake that's all coiled up!
Canaan is still stuck in the stone age.
Compared to her, you're a pretty smart girl.
W-What are you trying to say?
It's okay.
You said before that I had a duty to fulfill, right?
Yes.
Canaan is the strongest and most intimidating
when she has a light to protect.
A light to protect?
That's right.
She can only unleash her true power when she has found
someone who understands her fully and loves her.
Understand her fully and love her?
That expression Canaan made...
wasn't one I'd ever seen before.
It was an expression which showed doubt, hatred, fear, pain, and repentance
all at once.
Why?
Who killed them then?
They all died because of that woman...
It's your fault.
Stop!
Don't say any more!
Stop it!
No!
Don't look away.
Stop relying on those strange senses you were born with
and just look at things the way they really are.
Are you afraid of death?
A Surrogate Fighter of Steel,
willing to take on any job,
can fear death?
Oh wait, right now you're just...
...an ordinary girl.
She was afraid of losing someone dear,
and would feel pain if her body—
no, she'd feel pain if something hurt her heart.
I don't want to see Canaan like that...
You only have one duty to fulfill.
You will become the trigger that will awaken Canaan's true power.
W-What are you suggesting?
I understand.
W-Wait a second here!
I don't have a choice, do I?
I'll take on the role you've prepared for me.
But in exchange,
please let me take a picture of you.
Because you possess sharp senses,
you sometimes lose sight of simple truths.
The rusty train, the smell of blood,
and the sound of gunfire.
Your senses become overstimulated by those things,
making you see something completely different;
leaving you unable to see the truth.
That's not true!
I can see it.
What's truly important is...
Were you able to see it that day, too?
I want to see you through the eyes of Maria Osawa,
without running away or relying on Canaan.
And unless I do...
I won't be able to walk alongside Canaan any more.
Fine.
That day, I distanced myself from Siam.
I distanced myself from my light.
And then...
Don't hesitate.
It's not about not wanting to lose my light.
What I need to protect right now,
my light, is...
Don't look away.
Stop relying on those strange senses you were born with...
and just look at things...
Just look at things...
the way they really are!
That took you long enough.
Where are Maria and Yun Yun?
Why are you asking me?
Shouldn't you be able to tell?
It's Maria's color.
It's different from usual.
It's faint and flickering weakly.
This means...
What did you do to Maria?
Your new light
might just vanish in the middle of a trip, as it did once before.
Maria...
Why did you do something like this?
Don't move, okay?
I'll save you no matter what it takes!
I'll protect you!
Canaan...
And it irritates me, on top of that, that you even protected me...
I was sure that those feelings were all true.
All you have to do is just be there.
In the end, I'd just been yearning for a Canaan;
I'd been hoping for a strong, graceful Canaan
who keeps looking at things that I can't see myself.
I wanted a Canaan who'd keep on illuminating me.
The car I've locked those two away in
has a time bomb attached to it,
while Maria Osawa is, at the moment, injured.
Unless we keep playtime to a minimum,
she'll die.
Good.
This is what I was looking for.
This is the despair that Siam—
that I saw in you!
Stop calling me by names that don't make any sense!
I don't like it.
Siam was the one who gave me my name!
Canaan.
That, is my name!
I'm the only Canaan!
I don't like this one bit.
Why do you also have that?
Siam and I are cut from the same cloth.
That's why I have it inked on my arm.
From the same cloth?
I've become strong
and have made my past my own, just as he wanted.
With vengeance as my fuel,
I can fly anywhere;
like a snake which soars across the sky.
No!
Siam said that nothing can be born from vengeance.
He said that a soldier born from vengeance would become nothing but an underdog!
Siam's death became certain the moment he told you that.
That's right, if only you hadn't...
If you hadn't shown up, Siam wouldn't have died there.
Bullshit!
There's no way—
You really are thick-headed, aren't you?
This is the person who killed Siam telling you:
If you hadn't shown up, Siam wouldn't have died there.
You're running out of time.
I'll kill you!
I lost someone,
and I gained someone,
and then I lost someone...
I longed for and wished;
I ran and gained someone again.
Maria smells good;
she's nice, and she's warm...
You're just like a baby.
All you do is fervently wish for things
without considering risks;
whatever straight-forward love that comes out of it will surely hurt another.
That's right.
Canaan is a baby.
She accepted everything without compromise
and loved me unconditionally.
If you were to become an ordinary girl,
I'd become powerless and unable to accept you, Canaan.
What should we do?!
I might not have shot Siam if you hadn't been there.
N-No!
And now, even Maria Osawa
will lose her life because of you—
You're wrong!
Yeah.
It's not right, Canaan.
You're risking your life and fighting for someone like me,
but I can't—
We'll have to turn to our last resort!
We're going to jump off the train.
Come on.
We won't be able to escape together.
It's no problem!
The train's going to blow up unless we get going!
Go by yourself.
What are you saying?
I have a favor to ask you, Yun Yun.
No way, I can't do that!
No! I don't want to!
Yun Yun...
Please.
Please!
A burning blue flame.
I need to aim for the moment she emits the color signaling her intent to kill;
at that split second, a chance will opens up right before the moment of attack.
But why isn't she...?
Are you wondering why things aren't going the way they always do?
I bet you are.
I don't want to kill you.
I was Siam's "Canaan" back then.
As Canaan, I strived to reach the heights that Siam strived to reach.
There are people on this earth who are superhumans.
Are you talking about Hollywood or something?
I'm not joking.
I probably don't have to mention that their bodies function better than ours,
but from time to time there are soldiers of fortune
whose abilities just meld perfectly in the heat of battle.
Superhumans are like tempests.
If you were to face off against them in battle,
the only thing you could do is despair in your own powerlessness.
Then what about me?
Yeah.
You're the ne plus ultra of human capability.
Siam had his eyes on you.
He had his eyes on the "despair" whose abilities were far superior to his.
Despair...
That might be true.
You're my light, Canaan.
You keep shining straight on, even to the end of the world.
But being loved and illuminated by you
has cast a shadow inside my heart.
I want to be able to shine on my own someday, too.
So don't leave me, okay?
Stay with me.
I was born from hatred,
I tame hatred,
and I laugh.
That's all there is to me.
I'm a snake that squirms across the ground, abhorred by all.
I'll tell you now.
What I want to kill isn't you.
By killing you, the despair,
I'll shoot through the ghost of Siam!
I'm sorry, Canaan.
I can't illuminate you.
I can't...
Sorry, Canaan.
Episode Twelve
Seasonal Train
The Land of Hope.
Hope.
The Land of Hope.